Monday, June 09, 2003
had alot of trouble sleeping.. when i finally got to slp, there was no dream.. it's just lyk falling into darkness. ha ha. kept waking up and the 1st thing dat came to my mind was always him. it's been lidat for the past few days though it used to b happy tots, not sad ones.. it's really getting into me lor.
when he told me he got things to tell me, i cld feel my heart beating faster and faster. i already knew wad he was going to say but i still wished it was going to b sth different..
"its like u noe i usually commit the folly of getting into a relationship too quickly..den tinks usually dun last..cos both parties will not understand each other so much den will quarrel easily..yup.."
dat's wad he said lor. i dunno if it's me, but i think
(i hope) wad he meant is dat he just wans to take things
slower, not to
stop things totally. then again, so wad if dat's wad he meant? things wun b the same anymore lor. dun even think i wan to luk at him during trainings liaos. dunno lah.. i only noe dat i lyk him more than he lyks me. but i knew dat a long time ago. suddenly feel q happy dat the snrs r passing out q soon. den i wun hafta face him anymore and dun hafta feel so terrible..
random thoughts at 4:14:00 PM
